Motivation: Water Fast

Waterfasting from today until Friday. I know I said that I would ease into the fast by juice fasting for two days but i really don't want to wait. We will see how i do!

Visual Motivation/Goals:

Tired

So I just started my period. Gross, I know. but it does make me feel better knowing there is at least some reason why i have been eating and craving junk foods. I think I'm averaging about 1600 calories a day but also doing 1p90x workout and running 3-8 miles. Weak, i know but i have to stay positive. plus while the scale says 117 i do have a flatter stomach (i lost an inch).

These past two days I have also been doing yoga. I am so suprised at how relaxing and rejuvenating yoga is. I never thought that i was a "yoga person" but  I am actually enjoying it. I tried it two summers ago and it was okay. I think i only stuck with it for so long because it really toned my arms. But now that i have a better mindset i can actually appreciate yoga for more than just a workout or losing weight.

that doesn't mean i dont want to lose weight. i really do! monday my real spring break begins (i work for a school-don't judge my spelling or writing style though, this is just a journal!) so ill just have classes/college to worry about which is no problem. consequently i am going to juice & waterfast.  so...

•  monday/tuesday: fresh juice only
• wednesday-saturday: water only
• sunday/monday:fresh juice
• monday-wenesday: fruits and veggies only

and then ill go from there. and of course i'll continue with yoga since it is low impact.

well i talked enough. now time for me to get starbucks!

Day 4

So i haven't been updating as much as i should =( Boo on me I guess. But I've been keeping up with exercising:

• Monday-p90x cardio x & 3 miles ran
•  Tuesday p90x cardio x, stretches, 6 miles ran
•  Wednesday-nothing I had class and work all day

As for food, monday and tuesday I ate under 1200 calories but today i pigged out. not as much as i did last week/month but still probably 1500-1600. On a positive note, my stomach is noticeably flatter but i haven't gained enough courage to weigh myself. i want to wait until monday when i know i will be at least a pound down.

Other than that my brain is pretty much fried. I've been working, exercising, and studying my brain outs. i need to sleep!

Motivation Day 4:

Exercise and Motivation (day 1 part 2)

Exercise:

• 6 miles (walked 4, ran 2)
• P90x cardio x

Update

• Walked 2 more miles
• 100 situps/crunches/twists
• 25 leg raises, 25 side raises, 25 inner thighs, 25 back of thighs
• 50 arm exercises (25 w/weights)

Motivation:

This is pretty much how my body looks right now. which isn't horrible but...its not perfect!

The First Post

So I have at least 15 pounds to lose by May 20th. Ideally, I'd like to be 100 so losing 20 pounds would be even better. Lately though, my eating has been out of control. Really, I just feel like a fat pig! I eat so much that I lose track of the amount of calories I eat (i'm guessing around 2500?) But now I am really going to buckle down because being 120 pounds is awful and I am guessing if I continue eating the way I am eating I'll gain even more. I think keeping myself accountable will help me move in the right direction. Plus, I am going to join a gym this week to help me burn more calories (i have a treadmill at home but i live with other people so I can't go on all of the time).

Last summer I was 108 and the summer before that I was between 100  and 105 so being 120 right now just feels so gross. I've been eating pizzas, cookies, pancakes, candy, just basically stuff I never used to eat. But now i am going to start easing back into my old ways so that by summer i don't have to feel like a huge whale and so that i will be able to wear cute summer clothes without being self conscious.

Anyways, i'll be updating a lot (especially my calorie intake/outtake and hopefully weightloss) and maybe i'll even take before and after photos. We'll see. But so far here is what I've eaten today:

• Yogurt Light & Fit=80 calories
• Bag of Baked Lays bbq flavor=140 calories
• 1 package of apple (from subway)=35 calories
• 1 apple=80 calories (i think?)

So that is 335 calories. i know that seems like a lot of food for this time of day but compared to how much i've been eating (and what i've been eating) that is actually a step in the right direction. I'm going to try to burn off the amount of calories i eat today since it is all about calories out-calories in. so i'll hit the treadmill this afternoon.

Update:

Subway sandwich veggie delight=300ish (no cheese)

2 slices of dry toast (150 calories for 2 pieces)

Coffee and almond milk (150 calories?)

2 more apples